“The hardest thing about “everything happens for a reason” is waiting for that reason to show up.”
Forgive me, but you’re going to see a different side of the woman behind Simple Swaps. I am going to throw some #realtalk at you like I’ve never done before. It’s something I’ve thought about writing for a while but just haven’t had the courage. But, after the last month, I think it’s a sign it’s time.
There’s no #simpleswap for fertility. Yep, ask anyone whose struggled with figuring out fertility and I’d bet they’d tell you the same thing. You can do all the right things, eat a healthy diet, exercise and practice stress management but still the stars won’t align. It sucks.
I wish there was a more graceful way for me to say this, but the words don’t seem to wanna come to me. I’m angry, upset, frustrated, confused… basically every mixed emotion you could feel. After 10 years of religiously taking the prescribed pill I’ve now just found out that it wasn’t necessary! What do you mean “wasn’t necessary?” Yep, my question exactly.
Everyone who’s gone through fertility issues knows it’s not black and white. You can spend countless hours with each and every specialist, waiting for the missing puzzle piece to be handed to you that will finally make you “whole”. But, sometimes there’s just no piece, the puzzle is left to science and you’re told it’s just not possible through conventional ways.
WAIT- you mean to tell me there’s no superfood I can stock up on, there’s no meditation I can start that will cure me? I just don’t understand.
Being a woman of science, I mean come on, dietitians do have to take like 5 different biology courses, I just can’t wrap my head around it. How can my hormones just “turn off like a light”?
Though I’m pretty sure I’ll never fully understand the how’s, what’s, when’s and why’s, I do know that everyday I’m reminded in some way that fertility is and will continue to be a challenge for us. It’s funny, things that are simple and innocent, like someone saying “you must be pregnant” when I’m feeling a bit nauseous can set me into a spell of self-pity and depression.
Trust me, I WISH I WAS PREGNANT! I wish I had morning sickness; and frankly, I wish I was nauseous all over you! Okay, that may be a little harsh, but like I warned you, it’s Simple Swap’s #realtalk session today.
Now, please don’t misunderstand this post or the intention of this series. I am fully supportive of the alternative methods like IVF, adoption and the other possibilities that can help us start a family, but I seem to be hung up on a memory I have from childhood. I remember watching Father of the Bride Part II and thinking about the moment when I would find out I would be a mom. I pictured my husband coming home to find me holding the pregnancy test with the little plus sign shining through…
Though the spontaneity of having a baby will have to be a bit more planned for Mr. CEO and I, I know there’s still a hope for us to start a family of our own someday. I wanted to open the conversation up to the blogosphere because I’m sure there are more people who can relate.
To be honest, it was a few of the lovely dietitians I network with that really inspired me to bite the bullet and post this. My hope with this #figuringoutfertility series is that it will be a place for you to find support, share stories, vent and get a good laugh at the same time. Know that I’m here and whatever you need, you’re not in it alone.
Here’s to #figuringoutfertility … and for now, at least we can enjoy a glass of wine while we do!